I don’t know a lot of things right now. I don’t know where God is taking me. I don’t know what He is up to. I don’t know how He is working all this out for my good & His glory. I simply do. not. know. But thankfully, when we lay all of our unknowns at His feet and leave them there, He promises us peace. Not just any peace. His peace. Peace that surpasses our mind’s need to have understanding-and therefore a sense of control-in the midst of it all (see Philippians 4:4-7).
And thankfully, His Word is still true and still speaks. So, even with all of these unknowns crushing my weary heart, there are also many things that I do know. In no particular order, here are some of those high points.
One day, I will be going back to India. That was made abundantly and beautifully clear from the moment I stepped out of the airport into the sticky, humid air in Hyderabad. It felt like home. Literally, with a side of cheesy, it felt like home. Then our team leader, someone I had never met before that night, met me and said, “Do I know you? Have we already met?” I replied, knowing he had lived in Dubai, that maybe we had crossed paths there. “No, no, you were there before I was…You just look like you belong here.” I’m pretty sure my mouth dropped open. I was blown away. That story sums up the whole trip for me. Or if you would like it in a word: affirmation.
After my initial rebellion of not studying the word as much as I should’ve been upon entering this season, the first book I really dove back into was the Psalms. If you’ve followed me on here, you saw how much psalm 40 meant to me. If you are ever struggling physically, I highly recommend a deep reading & meditation of the psalms. Then of Job. Here are some verses that He is reminding me of right now that have come to mind a lot and that continue to be my prayer very often:
1 Peter 3:6-11 (ESV)